work..work..work...

Yesterday at work someone said to me "I can't see you as the career person but more of a person to be with her family more". I thought about that while I worked away at the Deli and thought I do want to be with my family and do as much as I can with my children. But I still want a career and a job. Even doing part-time work while my children are growing up but I don't want to be a stay at home mom. Just because I think I would not like being inside the house all the time. Need something to get up for and know I can be independent. This person also said to me most students end working what they did for their very first job. So she said "I can see you as a Deli Manager or own or work at a restaurant". I looked at her thinking "are you crazy?". No offense to the people who are working at Deli and Restaurant as their permanent job but that's not what I want. I know that for a fact because I dread going to work everyday. I lose sleep worrying about my horrible schedule for the next week and I can't wait until the time comes when I can leave. I have no desire to work at a deli or a grocery store for the rest of my life. She said she knew a girl who was very bright and worked while she was in University. But by the time she was done she was Manager at her job, earning good money and was very comfortable at this job. To this day she is still there wasting a way a degree. I understand why people do that because you think what if I quit and I can't find a good job anywhere else. Why don't just stay here were I know the job so well and earn good money already. Life isn't about that. You must try new things and experience new things. Life is going to throw you obstacles you don't like but in the end you will have no regrets. I shouldn't really talk because their are still things I would like to do but are afraid and I am afraid now that I will regret it in the years to come. I am also a person who doesn't cope with change very good. At first it's hard for me but then I eventually do get used to. I don't want to live where I am now for the rest of my life but I wan't to move around even to different countries. It scares me so much thinking about leaving my hometown and the house I grew up in and changing cultures. But if you stop doing everything because you are afraid of the what if's then you will never experience things and have regrets. I want to know what life is like outside these walls. That includes different jobs and hopefully more exciting jobs then a dishwasher or a deli worker or deli queen as my dad calls me. I just hope everyone who has the chance to do college and University doesn't waste it on dead end jobs and does things with their life's. It can be scary thinking about the outside world but you will regret it if you don't. That's why I went to Humber to experience living on my own and living in a different area then I do now. I like it at times but now I don't have a regret not going away for school. There are still so many things I want to do and experience and I do have time to do them and I will. Stay positive and don't think your dead-end student job is all you can do!