The New Device I Want

 

So everyone should know about the new iPhone 4 that was released in July 2010 in Canada. If you don't know about it then you must not leave your house. Apple has been coming out with new gadgets like this iPhone, iPad and the new Nano. They are new devices that are worldwide and people love and enjoy them. With the new App store with millions of apps on there, there is no stop to having fun. Its like a mini computer and phone all in the palm of your hands. You can read your favorite book, you can skype with your friend in the States, you can play games while on the train, you can listen to your favorite music, you can watch a movie and you can even check your emails. Who wouldn't want a gadget that has everything you need. No more having a cell phone, iTouch, book, laptop all separate in your bag. Its all in one and you can take it everywhere with you. This will be my next big purchase as soon as I am not a starving student anymore.  Can't wait :)

Philip Christopher Langman

So this guy happens to be my most amazing boyfriend, Philip Christopher Langman. We have been through a lot of good times, bad times, sad times, awesome times and FANTASTIC times. We met in Gr.12 in High School in Math Class. Became friends and during the Christmas Break that year something magical happened and we became boyfriend and girlfriend on January 7th, 2008. So this January we will have been together for 3 years. It's hard to believe but it's true. This guy is a big part of my life and he makes me so happy. I couldn't ask for a better person to be in love with.

GO LEAFS GO

Toronto Maple Leafs top of the League

So this picture just shows that leafs can make it to the top of the league. So there could be a good chance that they can finally make it to playoffs or even better win the Stanley Cup :) That would make my year! I know there is a lot of people who dislike the leafs now or make fun of me for it but I don't care. I am a fan that won't back down! They are 11th on the list now but its only the beginning!!

Bark of the Forest

Bark of the Forest. Etobicoke, Ontario

Rocks of the Path

Rocks of the Path. Etobicoke, Ontario

That One Place, That One Memory

Do you ever want that one place that you can escape to and for once you can feel at peace with no worries, problems and remember who you really are? I have yet to find that peaceful place I can visit to whenever I feel stressed or down but I have visited some places that have made me feel exactly that. For an example, Rest Bay, Porthcawl, South Wales. A seaside my family go to at least once when we visit. It's not a trip to Wales if we haven't been to that particular beach. When we drive up and I begin to see the rocks that remind me of climbing on when I was a child trying to find interesting sea creatures that were left behind in the tide or when I would smell the sea air or see those waves that reminded me of the fun days swimming there,  I feel complete. It's weird how one beach can make me feel that way but at this beach there is so much history in my family for generations. My mom had holidays there when she was a child and my Nana also did and so on. I remember all those day trips with the family there were we set up our umbrella, beach chairs, blankets beside a area with a a big puddle of left over water when the tide went out, and awesome rock area to climb. Oh being a kid again, when you can spend hours playing in your own imagination.When I walk along the water line with my shoes sinking in the sand and watching the waves just lets me think all my problems away. No city noises or crowds of people just the sound of the waves and the wind blowing. This kind of moment I call peaceful. Just wish you can have more of those peaceful moments in life.  This is year I also enjoyed taking pictures and found enjoyment. I am not a professional photographer or have a fancy expensive camera but I can see my pictures being beautiful. Rest Bay, Porthcawl, South Wales is on my top ten lists of peaceful places to visit. 

I also remember this one moment where I met a girl. I was really young so it surprises me I still remember that one moment. It's just a flash of it but every time I go there I am reminded of that mement. I tell that story every time I visit there whoever is with me. I wonder if anyone has noticed I mention it every time or its just not as interesting to them as it is to me so they forget. But I will never forget it. The tide was in and when the tide was fully in, there was no sand to walk on so you stand on some rocks and watch the waves. I remember standing on this one rock and I was throwing in pebbles into the water when this girl came up beside me. I remember her telling me her name was Jenna and we became best friends instantly. You know when you are young and you could make best friends in a second with meeting them. It was one of those moments. The last thing I can see in that flash of memory is us throwing pebbles into the sea. Why does that moment make me smile every time I visit there and it reminds me of it? I really don't know but it's a memory that I know that will always make me smile no matter what. It must of been special to be a memory that I haven't forgotten about and never will.

Rocks of the Sea

Rest Bay, Porthcawl, South Wales

time to make mistakes

When I was traveling back to Canada from Wales, on the plane they had Twilight: Eclipse on. If you have seen it, the part where they have their graduating ceremony the girl makes a speech. She mentions in her speech that this is the time to make mistakes. Right now in my life I am scared about the future and what is going to happen. I worry about this program I am in, if this is a mistake and I worry about if I am going to be able to perform for my internship or possible future job. When I heard that one line it made me think that I am allowed to make mistakes. Maybe this course is not for me so its a mistake to learn from. Now I will have a better idea what I like or what I am good at. I can take that and use it to help make future decisions. Even when I was choosing a course to take at college I still had no idea what I wanted to do as a career. Believe it or not I still don't know what I want to do. It scares me because I don't know what my next move should be. Should I move forward and take a big step or wait and see if anything pops up. In the next couple of months I might have to make big choices that can change my life. Its frightens me to death because I am not positive on what I want in life. I know I want a job that makes me happy, a husband and family, a nice home in a nice community. But those are the easy things to know what you want in life it's the specific that's hard. Where to live, what job to have and who to marry. How do you know you are making the right choices. All I want is something to fall into place and tell me I am going the right direction. But also it's not like I am 30 years old with kids and stuck. I am young, I can live in this country and then if I decide it's not what I want I can move somewhere else. I have time to stay in school and continue my education. I have time to find that right job and the right person. I have time to make mistakes!!

First Year Projects

Here are some projects I did in my first year in the Multimedia Design and Production Technician program which is based on the Interactive Media and the Internet of today. Majority of them were created using Adobe Flash CS4. I also use Adobe programs such as, Adobe Photoshop CS4, Adobe Dreamweaver CS4, Adobe Illustrator CS4 and Adobe Fireworks CS4. Just getting into Adobe CS5 which was just released in April 2010. I don't have any of my website projects using Adobe Dreamweaver CS4 because I feel I don't have a good project in it that I want to share yet. One day I will though but not from first year.  This will give people an idea what I do in this program.

This project was done in Adobe Flash CS4. We had to pick either an artist or photographer and create a Flash Photo Site based on them and their work. This was done on a friend of mine who started off photography as a hobby and now is enrolled in a Photography course. I would like this project to be better then it is but the time I had to work on it I was not able to complete everything I wanted.


http://jennahooper.com/Classes/w10/120/FINAL/photoSite.html

This project was also done in Adobe Flash CS4. We had to pick either an Album Cover, DVD Cover or Game Cover and make it interactive. I choose the Mario Party 8 for the Wii because I enjoy playing the game but also because the characters are well known and it has many soundtracks to use for the sound. Again I would of liked to added a lot more interactive things to this project but this is what I have. This has sound.

http://jennahooper.com/Classes/w10/120/InteraticeCover.html

This project was also done in Flash CS4. We had to a Digital Video Clock by filming images or objects that have the number 0 to 9 and it was to give you the time that was on your computer of the hours, minutes and seconds. Using Adobe Illustrator CS4 I took famous paintings and did a clip mask to have the painting inserted in the text number. So when you are viewing it look closely for the famous paintings and see if you recognize most of them.

http://jennahooper.com/Classes/w10/410/video-clock.html

This project also was done in Flash Adobe CS4 but also used Adobe Photoshop CS4. We had to take this Trunk Monkey Commercial Video and encode it to work in Flash. We also had to design a way to present it. I put the video in an image of a TV and had other images surrounding it to make it like an advertisement but on the Internet. Make sure to watch the actual commercial because it will make you laugh. This has sound.

http://jennahooper.com/Classes/f09/222/monkey.html

This project was done in Flash Adobe CS4 but also used Adobe Photoshop CS4. We had to encode a video and make a frame for it in Flash and a video controller for it. Mine is a Lego Matrix video and the video controller isn't working perfectly but it was the best I could do. This has sound.


http://jennahooper.com/Classes/w10/410/Video%20Controller/video.html

This project isn't one of my bests for the design but it was done in Adobe Flash CS4 and I also used Adobe Photoshop CS4. We had to pick a place that people travel to and make a mini Flash website for the information of the place. I picked London England not only because it is one of my favorite cities I have traveled to but people do like to travel to England who like history.

http://jennahooper.com/Classes/w10/120/TravelSite.html

This project was the first step to the final project. I used Adobe Fireworks CS4 and Adobe Photoshop CS4 to create these designs.We had to brainstorm a design for a restaurant called Saffron and create a Flash website on the design chosen. All three of my designs are different and have no similarity. The first one is for a classy and professional luxurious restaurant. The second one is for a modern restaurant even though majority of people's opinions were it looked like a design for a Chinese restaurant. The third design is for the young generation bringing more entertainment to the restaurant. The first one is the one that I ended up doing for the final project. Majority of people gravitated towards it more. My favorite part of the first design is the Logo.

 

These two designs were only a small part of the Sketchbook Project. I used  Adobe Illustrator CS4 for this project. This part of the project we had to do some of our own Sketches for the Media. The Roxy Effect is similar to the Clothing Brand Roxy but it's suppose to be like the next generation of it. I drew the heart on myself and using the programs font for the text. The Pink Floyd design could be a design for a new album for the band. In class we were learning Illustrator and I randomly designed the traingle and thought it could be used for this. I picked Pink Floyd because the use triangles in most of there album covers or posters. For example the Dark Side of the Moon.

the end is near...

The title for this blog seems a little drastic to what I am actually going to talk about so don't panic! What I do mean is that summer is coming to an end which means no more beach days, camping, swimming, tanning and sun. Summer went by so fast and now school starts in about a week and a half. It's hard to believe that 4 months have gone and now back to the 8 months of school and majority of it winter. On the bright side though my last day at the Deli has finally arrived :) How I feel about it? Well, great. Yeah I am going to miss some of the people I work with but not going to miss the job that's for sure. It's nice to know I don't have to work there for the rest of my life. But on that note it means summer is coming to an end and it means back to school. I am excited to move back to Toronto. Already know the area, the friends I had made, the course I am in and I got the Master bedroom in the apartment I am in. Step up from last years room which was tiny, no window, more money and with centipedes. I am scared for second year of college because in my fourth semester there will be a field placement. I hope I find a company that will take me on and I hope I can do well. This field placement will help make decisions on whether this field is for me or not. Get to experience the real work field and see what actually goes on. So many things to stress about but also lots of things to be excited about. I am being positive this is going to be a good year. In the beginning of August I filled out applications for a few scholarships and if I get a letter from them in the mail it will mean I have got a scholarship. So I am hoping I do because any money would help pay for my school this year. 4 months of working has only been able to pay for my rent and not tuition. I also signed up to win a MAZDA 2 with Scene.ca. I am not usually lucky but I am seeing myself with scholarships in my hand sitting in the front seat of my new MAZDA 2 driving to Toronto for my second year of College ;)

The One with the Rose

This photo is me and I took it Valentines Day 2009. I did some editing with it and I like it. It looks like something you would use for Twilight. With their book covers using red images and black background. Could be a photo used for a DVD or book cover. Something about the eye that grabs my attention not so much the rose. If you have an opinion go for it and tell me.

Leadership Comes with Great Responsibility

This week the Deli hired three new employees to help cover up the loss of 3 other employees who either wont be working there anymore or just part-time. I didn't want to do any sort of training with these new employees. I just wanted to stay out of it because I didn't think I had the right to tell them what to do or show them what to do when I was, before them, at the bottom because I was classified as the "newbie". But of course I some how had to show them how to do things. After getting into that position I was stuck. Thursday night my Manager came back for the evening to help do closing training. I was doing training all day with them and she watched me train them while she was there. I didn't know if I was doing a good job or showing them how to do things the way she liked it but I did my best. The next day at work she gave me a compliment I didn't expect to hear. She said to me "You did really well with training them last night. You were patient and just great with them and thank you so much for your help". I haven't gotten too many compliments from her in a while and when she said that to me it made me feel so good inside. I felt like I was finally being noticed that I know what I am doing, I am a good worker and I am not useless. She gave me the task of training them more that day and letting them be my shadow. She gave me the great responsibility to be a leader and train these new employees. Something came over me like this whole new me. I felt mature, confident and felt like a leader. I am a person who just wants to help people and when I saw them struggling and they wouldn't ask I would go up to them and make sure they were okay. I would encourage them and compliment them when they were doing a good job to help boost their confidence. I told them if you are in doubt or don't know ask. It's better to ask and do it right then not asking and getting told off for doing it wrong. Some of the other workers hate the new people asking them what they should do all the time but I don't mind. I rather help them then watch them struggle. If they don't ask they won't learn. If we don't help they wont learn. Yes there are people who can annoy you but sometimes you just got to suck it up and be patient with them. If I was a teacher there will be one or two students who are just bad and don't listen. But you can't give up on them. People are so hard on the new people so quickly before giving them a chance. Remember when you first started it took a while to get the hang of things. When I started I wanted people to be easy on me so I treat the new employees the way I would want to be treated if I was new. It might take some people longer to get it but they will get there. Almost every employee in this Deli have 2 weeks to show if they are good or not. There is a lot to learn and I think they should be given a chance. Feeling this leadership and having them come to me on what to do next or when should they take their break, or how to do things was so strange at first to have everyone come to me but at the same time felt good. Even one employee who has been there longer then me asked if they should do this cleaning task at that moment. I never get asked. I was thinking tonight if maybe this is another sign becoming a teacher is what I should do. I told someone about this and they said you would be excellent at a teacher. You need to be a leader, confident, patient and want to help. Maybe I would make a good teacher in the future. Even if I do I will probably be 26 or so before I actually had my own class to teach. By then I would be more mature and have a lot more confidence then I do now. So given the task of training has made me think more about who I am and what I could be good at. My Grade 1 teacher told my mother that I was number one leader in the class and when my mom told me this when I got older I couldn't see myself ever being a leader but more of a follower. But I think deep down inside me there is a leader in me just waiting to burst out. I just need to figure out what to do to bring the leader inside me shine.

Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery & Today is a Present

Stressing is a common activity I do in my life. I can stress about the littlest things at times and I wish didn't. When I read back all my blogs I have written in the last couple of weeks I realize how confused and worried I am about my future. The other night I had a campfire with my family and I talked to my parents about the things that were worrying me. Especially the one about what I am suppose to do in life for a career. Talking to them helped so much and made me think in a different way. Instead of being negative and stressing I am now being positive. I will find out my purpose. It might take longer then others but it will happen. I can't just mop around thinking about what do I do next and just go out there and try. When I complete my college course I am still only 21. I have the time to decide to try new things. My goal for 2010/2011 is to complete college with honours again and no stressing about what will happen next year and just wait until the moment comes. Wasting so much time thinking and stressing about what could happen in a years time is not the way to go. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a present. So enjoy what is happening in your life right now, don't think about the past and stop worrying about the future.

The other day I thought of a story and at first I thought I would write a book. But of course I am not patient enough to write out a book. I just want to get the story out there. So I decided to make it into a movie script. I have thought of the whole story board and it could change while writing it out. Its a hobby and you never know it could be read by the right person and actually become a movie one day. I don't usually like people reading my stories or telling them about my ideas. Always afraid of the shut down saying its stupid or it will never work. But after starting to blog and sharing many of thoughts in my mind I am beginning to share a lot more then I used to. I am exited to write this movie script and hope it turns out the way I imagine it.

When I broke my leg last year I became depressed and got cabin fever. Even though I knew I would heal and life would be back to normal eventually at that time I didn't see that. So one day I decided to do up a vision board on everything I wanted to accomplish or do in the year. So I set goals for myself. A vision board to remind me to stay positive. I had things like heal my femur, go to Humber, good grades in College, get a summer job, get braces off, go to Wales, earn money for school etc. After months gone by it was christmas time and I came across my vision board. When I looked at it and saw everything I drew out I realized that I had done everything on that board. At first I couldn't believe it but it felt so good. The law of attraction. They say if you are positive your life good things will happen but be negative and bad things will surround you. If you want to try setting goals for yourself or what you would like to happen start by writing down what those goals are or be creative and make a vision board. You can use magazine cut outs or pictures from the Internet. Its a board for you to vision what you want to accomplish and do in a period of time. After my experience with my first one I believe in the law of attraction and actually thinking of doing up another one. Try it out and you never know.

So to conclude this blog I believe a sign will come to me to tell me what I am suppose to do in this world. I sometimes think loving being with the children in my cousins primary class is a sign or maybe wanting to write a movie script is a sign. Who knows right now. But as time goes on things will just fall into place. I will continue being positive and believing God will be there to direct me in the right direction. I am just so glad I have a loving family who cares so much and a great boyfriend who is always by my side and to great friends making me smile and laugh when I need it. Life is good so enjoy it and stop stressing!

BE POSITIVE!

true friends ?

It's hard to know who are true friends and who are not. You think they are and then you would do anything for them and eventually find out they didn't care for you as much as you did for them. You wasted those times with them, you wasted your energy making them happy or wasted giving them your loyalty. When the friendship ends and you see the real picture that they weren't in the friendship like you were, it hurts. Its sad at first and then it turns into anger. You think to yourself why did I waste so much time with that person? I was stupid and blind to see the real picture of who they were and how they treated me. Years after you still think of that person and all you did for them. Just so much pain and anger thinking they probably didn't appreciate all you did. You think the next time I see that person I am going to tell them straight up what I think about them and how much I wasted on them. Make them feel small just like they did to me. How do you know if they will be loyal to you as much as you are to them? How can you know if they are in the friendship because they enjoy your company and want you in their lives? How can you know they wont back stab you or hurt you? Who can know these answers when becoming friends with someone. Who can tell if this friendship is worth my time? It hurts so badly when you care so much and be the best friend you ever can be. Always have their back, always trying to do things with them that you know they will enjoy, always caring so much, never leaving them out, never treat them with disrespect and never forget them. Why does the good friend get hurt in the end and the bad friend gets away with it and moves on like there was no friendship. It’s hard to know anything anymore. To know the difference between a true friend from a fake friend. Loyal friends just like you are out there and will be found. Just looking forward to that day where you know your friendship is appreciated. 

    

Decisions

Personally I dislike making hard decisions. To tell you the truth I actually don't like making any decisions unless I am positive on what I want. Lately I have been thinking  "what am I suppose to do in life?", "what is my purpose"?, "what I am really good at?". These questions go through my mind often when I am thinking about what job I want when I go into the real world. Am I suppose to go into media or is their something else I am supposed to do. How can I know though? I can't spend the rest of my life going to school for different courses or waste away never knowing. I would like to know soon so I can make decisions in my life. If I am ready to move to a different country or should I go back to school for another course. I look at some people and it seems they know exactly what to do and what they need to do in life and I want to ask them how do they know? How do you know this is what you are suppose to be doing for the rest of your life? I wonder if I just need to experience life and it will just jump right in my face one day like seeing the light or I just have to find something that pays the bills and I can enjoy doing. I wish life was easier to live in but its not. Soon I will have to do a lot more reality things by myself. No more parents looking after it all. But it's coming real soon where I will have to do that and to tell you the truth I am so scared. I want to be an independent women as well. Know how to do everything on my own and have my own career. I see so many women who have depended on their husbands so much and end up getting a divorce. What happens to those women is they are left alone with no education or no knowledge on how to live. Why would you want to end up like that. If that happened to me I would be so scared and wouldn't know what to do next. Thats one goal in life is not to be dependent on the man and be independent. That's one decision made but what about the rest. What about what I should do as a career? Do what I am doing in Media or be a teacher or do journalism? I am so confused what to do I feel like I am going to burst from the inside. I am hoping and praying for a sign to show and tell me the right path. I am sure many of people are suffering with the same questions about life. Not the only one. But I need to learn to stop stressing and worrying about it and enjoy what life brings to me now or I will regret it. I am only 20 once so may as well have fun and of course still do my homework.

work..work..work...

Yesterday at work someone said to me "I can't see you as the career person but more of a person to be with her family more". I thought about that while I worked away at the Deli and thought I do want to be with my family and do as much as I can with my children. But I still want a career and a job. Even doing part-time work while my children are growing up but I don't want to be a stay at home mom. Just because I think I would not like being inside the house all the time. Need something to get up for and know I can be independent. This person also said to me most students end working what they did for their very first job. So she said "I can see you as a Deli Manager or own or work at a restaurant". I looked at her thinking "are you crazy?". No offense to the people who are working at Deli and Restaurant as their permanent job but that's not what I want. I know that for a fact because I dread going to work everyday. I lose sleep worrying about my horrible schedule for the next week and I can't wait until the time comes when I can leave. I have no desire to work at a deli or a grocery store for the rest of my life. She said she knew a girl who was very bright and worked while she was in University. But by the time she was done she was Manager at her job, earning good money and was very comfortable at this job. To this day she is still there wasting a way a degree. I understand why people do that because you think what if I quit and I can't find a good job anywhere else. Why don't just stay here were I know the job so well and earn good money already. Life isn't about that. You must try new things and experience new things. Life is going to throw you obstacles you don't like but in the end you will have no regrets. I shouldn't really talk because their are still things I would like to do but are afraid and I am afraid now that I will regret it in the years to come. I am also a person who doesn't cope with change very good. At first it's hard for me but then I eventually do get used to. I don't want to live where I am now for the rest of my life but I wan't to move around even to different countries. It scares me so much thinking about leaving my hometown and the house I grew up in and changing cultures. But if you stop doing everything because you are afraid of the what if's then you will never experience things and have regrets. I want to know what life is like outside these walls. That includes different jobs and hopefully more exciting jobs then a dishwasher or a deli worker or deli queen as my dad calls me. I just hope everyone who has the chance to do college and University doesn't waste it on dead end jobs and does things with their life's. It can be scary thinking about the outside world but you will regret it if you don't. That's why I went to Humber to experience living on my own and living in a different area then I do now. I like it at times but now I don't have a regret not going away for school. There are still so many things I want to do and experience and I do have time to do them and I will. Stay positive and don't think your dead-end student job is all you can do!

modeling..

Throughout the years since I turned 12 people have been telling me to do modeling. I always just figured it was because I was tall and slim. I would look at myself in the mirror and never see myself being on a cover of a magazine or on a billboard somewhere in New York City. Never thought I was the modeling type or had the look for it. The older I got the features on my face began to change and I got braces. Now when I look at myself in the mirror I feel good about myself. I will admit though I sometimes still put myself down but that's just normal for me. I used to be very private showing my body but now feel comfortable doing it. People always said to me you have a nice body show it off before it's too late. Now I wear bikini's at the beach and wear short shorts when out on a sunny day. But I still don't have the confidence in myself to try modeling. I am one of those people waiting for a professional to say to me do modeling and I will help get you there. I am wondering if I am wasting time to do modeling or it's not really for me.

the begining of many more.

This is my first blog ever and I thought I start now because there are always things on my mind. I am in a stage in my life where big decisions have to be made. For example, what the heck I want to do with the rest of my life for a career, where I want to live, should I do this or not. But one thing I do know for sure is I don't want to end up working in a grocery store at a Deli for the rest of my life. I want my life to be interesting and exciting. I want to wake up every morning with a smile on my face knowing I am going to enjoy my day. Do something that makes me happy and be able to come home to a loving place and family. To have the freedom to travel and do new things. But I am sure most people want exactly that in life and it does come with hard work or for the people who just get lucky by having a rich family or marrying rich or even winning the lottery have no worries. I agree with the saying "Money doesn't make you happy". Of course it is great to have money in life so you can do the things you love and not have to worry about being in so much debt or worrying if you can feed your family. But it's what you do and family that makes you happy. Personally, I love being with my family and friends. The joy they bring to my life I couldn't ask for anything better. I am in a situation soon where I have to make a decision for my career. People ask me all the time "so what do you want to do for a job" and I really don't have an answer. It's sad really but I believe many people are in the same vote. I am currently enrolled in a Multimedia course and only have one more year. But been having seconds thought about it. I want to do something that helps others. Doing a good deed and making someone happy every day. I thought being a nurse or paramedic but I can't handle the blood or the broken bones, or needles or even losing them. There is also social worker but in 2009 I went to Wales and my cousin is a primary teacher. She asked if I wanted to come help with her class on craft day. So I did it about 3 times and loved it. I loved the kids, I loved helping them, I loved just listening to there stories. The past month I was thinking of actually maybe going into teaching. I thought I could do a teaching assistant course first and see if I really do like it and then start university. I don't want to rush into University and deciding it's really not what I want and being in debt. I can be shy but when I am pushed into a situation I can be confident. I thought this could be a way that I could help people. I am helping children learn. Plus I would get good benefits, pension and good holidays lol. But that's not what it's all about. I was also thinking of going to school in Wales and experience something different. I am hearing of lots of people who are going to Australia and that for school. There is still a lot to think about but for now I need to finish the college course I am in now and enjoy life :)